TAKE AWAY THE MICROPHONE AND IMMA SAY IT ANYWAY

2nd week of sch.
2 CAs tml.
English and addmath.
i'm not stressed. i wonder..

if i haven't said this already, THANK YOU LORD FOR MY TEACHERS!
even MISS yeo, ms tee, ms wong and mrs pang.
dun really like them, but i'm gonna thank God for them.

i seriously do NOT want to turn 16.
after i turn 16, i'll be 16.
NC16.
gah!
i dun want!!!!!
no0o0o0o0o....
i'm really fine being under 16, really!
oh man.
i'm not even 16 and i've gotta hear and SEE so much stuff i'mnot supposed to i wonder how i will SURVIVE after i OFFICIALLY turn 16.
not gonna say much, except for:

-army
-holes
-NC16

yup.

gosh.

thanks man! it's still in my head! God help!
well i dun meaN THAT picture of the thing is in my head, but whatever that HAPPENED. for Pete's sake!

NC16.NC16.NC16.

you just wait and see.

oh my. i dun mean SEE as in literally SEE.
shucks it soounds wrong.
ohmy. okayokay.
ANYWAY.

TRUST=
reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
confident expectation of something; hope.

haiz. guess many ppl dun know what exactly it means. lotsa people. so why am i always their target? gosh. find someone else ! guess it doesn't matter anymore. been through it so many times it really isn't surprising anymore you know. so whatever man. like seriously.

ohwell.
that's part of life/growing up or smth i guess?
i'll continue to praise your name through times like these for i know the plans you have for me are those not to harm me, but to prosper me. thankyou for all that i have been and am going through now. even though i really do not know why things like these are happening, i know that you are in total CONTROL of my life.

i will sing to you, Lord
in my darkest hour
i choose to praise your name
forever and ever
you hold me so close
you never let me go
you never let me go

yup.
I SURRENDER.
i guess there was a purpose why i sang that song the other day.
i guess God was preparing me for the undesired, that i would really surrender ALL.
so once again, THANKYOU LORD!

yesterday during cell, Gina asked us 2 simple questions:
1) What do thank God for in 2006?
2) What are you believing God for in 2007?

thought about it.
ans to the 1st question: parents' salvation of course. but i then asked myself again: is that the only thing i wanna thaank God for? definitely not. i thank God too, for all the disputes and bad stuff that happened in the cell, in TOUCHkidZ(last time not GKidz yet mah), in school, even at home. i thought to myself: what if these things hadn't happened? i guess life would be very much smooth sailing, but then i guess my walk with God would be really stagnant. it was because of these that have happened that i was able to hear God's voice and reassurance, that i could actually learn to SURRENDER things unto Him, and TRUST that He would take care of it. like they say: FAITH THAT IS NOT TESTED IS NOT FAITH AT ALL! well. mine was definitely tested and i have to thank mr S.A.Tan to a certain extent. thanks for bringing daddyGod and i so much closer!

ans to the 2nd question: my Os of couse! and now to LEARN to TRUST once again. it's difficult, it really is. but i'll do it. and then someone will come and abuse that trust again, and i'll start all over again. but this time, it's gonna be REALLY hard.

i'll stop saying i can't, i'm saying i can!

really duno what to do about s'rehsa orb.
as in after what he/she said to his/her cell. doesn't affect me, but it just comes back whenever i think of or see him/her. and we'vegot nothing to talk about now. just hopes he/she wasn't just "visiting" us, and that he/she will continue coming. but i can't control that sort of thing.
but its so common in the cell i wonder why i am surprised.
so tired of this shit.
someone get me a toiletbowl and air freshener.
gosh. it so doesn't make sense.
GAH/
whatever.
why am i saying gah. hmm.
man this is long!
i'm taking like 1 1/2hour to blog. ha. okay.

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